stressin'

I have SO much to do tonight.

laundry
pack
clean
finish making weegie's birthday present
make little tiny surprises for parting gifts.
greys anatomy from 9-10

oh and sleep..i am thinking of not sleeping tonight. i might have to for-go it to get everything done. sheesh! I am getting so anxious about all my travels over the next few weeks!! I'm leaving in 8 days to see my b!!!!!!!!!!!

farethewell..

My entire department at work took me to lunch to say goodbye yesterday. We went to Sabrina's in s philly..and Avalon was our server! It was so great, but it just makes it even harder to say goodbye, because it goes to show how awesome my co-workers are. After most people had left Sabrina's to head back to work..i got a little surpise, that put me over the edge, and i blubbered like a baby. what a sucker..




And then later in the afternoon, lc surprised me with my favorite kind of cupcakes ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is the best..

Matthew 25

I found this website via Emily's blog. It's a website that is run by a community of Christians that have chosen to support Obama, and help explain why, and how they feel 100% confident in their decisions. I sent it to my family, to maybe help them understand a different side of him then they normally hear from their conservative Christian news sources. I found it very helpful, and interesting..

2nd Annual Fall Time Fun Friends Feast

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oh my goodness!

I can't even believe its almost here. 11 days until I leave for Switzerland to see my b!!!!!!!!!!

It's been 9 weeks. It felt like I could never make it that long, but this has been such a wonderful time for me to grow and learn, and take care of myself. No one else is going to take care of me..and I need to do it seriously. I'm excited for Weegie to come back, and be able to go back into this relationship with a better and greater understanding of myself.

4 days left of work, which is also weird! Johnny Cupcakes here I come!

The Phils are in it man!

math

I love my cell. Sometimes I struggle with it, but most of the time, I love it. Last night was really really refreshing. First of all we had a couple of new faces, which is the first in a lonnnnng time, so that was really exciting. I don’t remember exactly how it was brought up- but we were talking about left brain vs right brain type people. I happen to be very left brained. I like math, and need to know how and why things work, and understand them before I can believe them. I think in a world where we were/are mostly brought up left brain in school and life, faith/God was always portrayed to me in an artistic, subjective way. It never fully computed in my head, and I’ve always felt like I had a hard time connecting to God. Well I think it’s because I’ve always tried to connect to something in a way that I know doesn’t work for me! At Circle, we have an L&A team- which I think is so awesome. It’s helping people connect to God through words, music, art, and symbolism. That works for a lot of people, though it’s never worked for me. What does it look like to connect to God in an analytical, objective, rational way? How do I connect like that? I really have no ideas at this point, but my cell helped get my thoughts running..so I can think about how to make that work. It’s refreshing, because it seems like there is a reason why I’ve always struggled to fully connect. Anyone interested in talking about this with me? How do you connect?

google

I'm not sure if I've ever expressed my deep love for all things google..but, I love love LOVE google. Not just the search engine..no my friends, the document, the mail, the chat, the maps, the reader, the calendar, the alerts, the blog, and most recently, the analytics..one of my favorite features of google analytics is the following report i get which tells me what people are googling, that gets them to my page. Here are my top 10..



now tell me, have you ever googled, google?

100th post!

It's semi sad that I've had this blog for almost 2 years, and I am just now getting to my 100th post. Well what better a way to celebrate then talking about my favorite thing. Moccasins! I want a pair of moccasin boots..and have narrowed it down to these few..which do you like best?




they both come in a few colors, the top also in black, and the bottom in sand and black.

co-workers save the day!

I'm really really glad to have such amazing people that I work with. They are great @ what they do..but they are the kindest, sweetest, most caring people. They really did the most awesome things to make sure my birthday was special. If i didn't have them..today would have been pretty lame. take a look..







alex made me a headress, its the coolest. It was an Indian's and Cupcakes themed party, and i was 100% surprised. I've never been so surprised in my life. I was shaking so bad! The cupcake flowers came from everyone, and the cookie bouquet is from KC and Cris (my bosses). What a special day! I even got a special phonecall from India, and a package from overseas too. I have such a great b.(EDIT) I also just got a phone call from a delivery guy who has flowers for me, that he won't be able to deliver tonight. I asked if he could at least tell me who they are from, and he said " i don't know, it just says 'b'.." only 3 weeks until I leave for switzerland!!

and now for the worlds ugliest dress..

Metallic Lamé Tube Dress

$19.80

This fierce metallic lamé stretch tube dress channels sophisticated style in the sexiest of ways. The stretchy gathered styling includes elastic-cinched side seams and detailing around the hem for a showy flair.
(italics and boldness, my own)

phillip lim

one of my favorite designers..and this is a perfect example of why. too bad on sale it's still $746.25. ewwwww

birthdays

this year, for the first time, I am dreading my birthday. My family is not here, my mom will not be making my spice cake with cream cheese frosting, weegie is not here, and I have nothing planned for myself, except going to work..and watching grey's. i really think I just want to cry. I can feel the tears back there, just waiting.

remember when your birthday was a special day planned by your family? At our house, the "birthday fairy" would come at night, and decorate the house, whith streamers and balloons. The whole day was about you, what do you want for breakfast? where do you want to go? what do you want to do? Taco's for dinner, and mom's cake for dessert. Presents from everyone in the family..and the whole day feels special. Tomorrow just feels like a regular day..nothing special happening at all. I wish my family- or weegie were here to make it feel like a special day. I just wish I could skip tomorrow..it's really bumming me out.

wintry blend!

as fall and winter come around, and leaves change, and the air is crisp, and my house smells of baked goods all of the time..i am reminded of possibly my favorite thing in the entire world...wintry blend coffee from trader joes. this medium bodied coffee is 100% arabica beans with cloves, cinnamon, and peppercorns. it's not acidic at all, and tastes like Christmas in a cup. I stocked up last year towards the end of the season, which didn't last long..I bought my first batch of the season last night, and enjoyed 2 cups this morning before work.

Fall is really here..

college

So when I graduated from high school- i went to a local community college for a year, but was only 16, so i definitely didn't know what i wanted to do. I enrolled in beauty school, and also did that for almost a year. I liked it, but it wasn't my thing, so i went back to the community college for almost another year. Then i took some time off, which is when i moved to LA and started working for Urban. After working there for awhile i realized i loved the fashion industry and could have a career in that field. I found FIDM, applied, enrolled, and graduated a year and a quarter later with my AA. (thanks to the transfer credits from my earlier stint @ community college)

So here I am, with 3 1/2 years under my belt of college, and only an AA. It's gotten me plenty far, and I'm not in need of a degree, but sometimes i think it would be nice to have a bachelors. It would have to be in Fashion Merchandising, which is perfectly fine with me. Does anyone have suggestions for a school that would have that type of program here in Philly? I'm considering going back to school for a year to get that degree.

thanks

it happens every once and awhile

I'm generally a happy lady. I'm what you call a "10". I feel like you should take life as it comes, and tackle each obstacle as it happens. There is no use worrying, or fearing the unknown (future). I tend to think very positively, and view life through rose colored glasses.

It doesn't always happen that I have this mindset. Every once and awhile, enough things pile up on my plate, that overwhelm me in an emotional way- and I feel upset, or frustrated, and deem those "bad" days. I'm having one of those bad weeks. Everything just feels like its taking extra effort/time/work. Nothing feels easy this week. And even things that have been or are normally easy, seem hard.

Emotionally I feel like I have a lot of baggage right now. I'm grateful for my cell, a place where I feel safe, and comfortable expressing these feelings. I was really looking forward to cell this week, as its kind of a new beginning for us, new season, new location, and new structure. Something that I love so dearly was even a struggle this week. We had a surprise visitor, which was unexpected, and I completely shut down. I spoke and shared against my will, and was left feeling uncomfortable, and vulnerable. That was hard to deal with.

I'm finding it really hard to connect with Weegie as he is travelling around the world. We're in such different places currently, thinking and doing completely opposite things. How can I relate to him? How can I connect and engage on a more intimate level through e-mail and a short phone call here and there? I'm left without an answer on that one, and so it feels strange and weird...and hard.

I'm trying not to, but I'm really hoping the retreat will provide some much needed brain purging time.

3 weeks and counting until my last day @ urban. thats so scary!!

baby lana

my baby girl

burffffffday party

click photo to enlarge invite.



you're invited!

oh that news..

So today I gave my notice to Urban Outfitters. It's been 4 1/2 years. I started at the Santa Monica store, as a sales associate, and worked my way up, through school, to be an assistant buyer @ the home office in Philadelphia. Its been an amazing job and company to work for, and I've learned soooo much. The time has come to take a step in a new direction.

I will be working for Johnny Cupcakes starting Nov 1st. We haven't come up with an official title yet, but I will be his business manager. I will be working from Philly- going up here and there for meetings. It's an amazing opportunity, and I'll be getting experience in so many different areas. I'm really excited about this change, and come on..how fitting??

the haps

some things to look forward too..

Lina posted this on our community's dialogue list. It looks like it could be cool..

30 reasons. From their site, "30 graphic designers create 30 posters and give you their 30 reasons reasons to vote for Barack Obama." Even if you aren't a fan, design is cool, so I'm excited to see the different artists use their mediums to create different things.

a clean break. Also from their site, "Promoting 'clean' development — aesthetically and ecologically — the exhibition features innovative design solutions from international architects and designers, addressing issues of urban infill, 21st century development and sustainability.

In conjunction with Design Philadelphia and National Design Week 2008, A Clean Break will emerge as a pop-up neighborhood of modern and sustainable design with an emphasis on modular and prefabricated homes. The outdoor exhibition offers full-scale homes to tour, installations by architects, urban farming, transportation, environmentally-friendly furniture, public art and other high-design, low-waste products."

ps- there will be a free bike valet @ the opening on October 16th from 7pm to 10pm. That sounds like a fun thing to do on my birthday :)

news!

i have super exciting news, but i cannot tell you until tomorrow. It has to do with cupcakes though!

eeeeeeeeeeee!