oh life. you're so hil ar i ous

been dealing with some pretty heavy stuff lately. I feel like crying alot. I'm probably drinking more than I usually do. my birthday was yesterday. it went really fast, but it was nice. i'm feeling very stressed out, and overwhelmed, and I'm thinking about alot of things.

1. Moving back to the West Coast.
2. Am I ready to try being in a relationship again.
3. Do I want to go back to school?

and it goes on and on. There is this pain in my heart that I can't think about or my eyes well up- and I can't talk to the most important people in my life about it. It's agonizing, and it hurts. It almost still doesn't feel real.

a certain someone makes me smile, and its nice to have a little distraction from all this craziness going on in my life.