Jul 23, 2011

father figure

i dont talk about it too much but as of a few months ago, I severed my relationship with my biological father. The emotional abuse was too much for me, and I decided to walk away. I am soooooo thankful to have my step-dad Kevin in my life. He's been around since I was 3 or 4, and him and I have become so close in my adult years. He truly is one of the most amazing men I know. I was talking to my mom the other night and I hadn't even thought about it but i said " I want kevin to be my dad". I think im still confused about how to refer to Randy..he's not my parent, or my dad, or father..i mean, what do i call him when talking about the situation with someone? It's a giant switch but going forward when I refer to my dad I'm talking about Kevin. I'm an honorary Haggard. Lana Cory Haggard. I wear it proud. I love you Kevin. You will never see this because you don't read blogs but I hope you have some fraction of an idea about how much i love you and love our relationship and look forward to seeing you every year and admire you and look up to you and hope we only grow closer as we get older. You're the best. Thanks for being so supportive and loving and accepting of me. For treating me as though I was your flesh and blood. It's meant more than I could even express. I love you dad!

2 comments:

Siobhan said...

I'm glad you have him. I know things with Randy have been difficult to deal with and you've done really well with it all.

Lauren said...

I haven't read your blog in too long and you didn't tell me about this! We need a phone date asap. I think you'll end up happier in the long run with this choice. It's hard at first but easier than the relationship is.